THE contents of Brian Laundrie’s notebook have revealed seven huge updates including how he wanted to meet a gruesome end.
Laundrie made shocking admissions and claims in the notebook, which was recovered by the FBI from the Myakkahatchee Creek Environmental Park on October 20, 2021, along with his skeletal remains.
Laundrie had been seen with multiple notebooks while traveling with Gabby.
The journal was released by the Laundrie family attorney Steven Bertolino, who received it from the FBI.
“Today the Petito family attorney, Patrick Reilly, and myself met with the FBI in Tampa to sort through and take possession of the personal items that belonged to Gabby and Brian,” Bertolino told Fox News Digital on Friday.
“As part of this return of property in FBI custody, I was given Brian’s notebook and I have turned [the] same over to Chris and Roberta Laundrie.”
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‘MERCIFUL MURDER’
In the journal, pictures of which have been obtained by The Sun, Laundrie elaborates on his claims about ending Gabby’s life.
“I ended her life. I thought it was merciful, that it is what she wanted, but I see now all the mistakes I made,” the notebook reads.
“I panicked. I was in shock.”
Gabby’s remains were discovered in Grand Teton National Park on September 21, 2021.
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On October 12, 2021, Teton County Coroner Dr Brent Blue confirmed Gabby died by strangulation.
GABBY’S PAIN
Laundrie claimed Gabby was dealing with an unknown injury and would “wake in pain.”
“I don’t know the extent of Gabby‘s injuries, only that she was in extreme pain,” he wrote.
He detailed an incident in the notebook that allegedly took place toward the end of her life.
“I hear a splash and a scream. I could barely see, I couldn’t find her for a moment, shouted her name,” Laundrie reportedly wrote.
“I found her breathing heavily gasping my name, she was freezing cold.
“The temperature had dropped to freezing and she was soaking wet.
“I carried her as far as I could down the stream towards the car, stumbling exhausted in shock when my knees buckled and knew I couldn’t safely carry her.
“I started a fire and spooned her as close to the heat, she was so thin, had already been freezing too long.
“When I pulled Gabby out of the water she couldn’t tell me what hurt. She had a small bump on her forehead that eventually got larger.
“Her feet hurt, her wrist hurt but she was freezing, shaking violently. While carrying her, she continually made sounds of pain, laying next to her, she said little lapsing between violent shakes, gasping in pain, begging for an end to her pain.
“She would fall asleep and I would shake her awake fearing she shouldn’t close her eyes if she had a concussion. She would wake in pain, start the whole painful cycle again while furious that I was the one waking her.”
HIS ‘FUTURE’ WITH GABBY
“From the moment I decided to take away her pain, I knew I couldn’t go on without her,” Laundrie continued.
“I’ve lost our whole future together, every moment we could have cherished,” he wrote.
“I am ending my life, not because of a fear of punishment but rather because I can’t stand to live another day without her.”
HE WANTED A GRUESOME END
Laundrie also wrote of wanting a gruesome end to his life, even revealing that he was considering having two people kill him.
“I wanted to drive north and let James or TJ kill me but I wouldn’t want them to spend time in jail over my mistake, even though I’m sure they would have liked to.”
Instead, Laundrie’s cause of death was from a gunshot wound to the head, dying by suicide.
“I have killed myself by this creek in the hopes that animal may tear me apart. That it may make some of her family happy,” he wrote.
APOLOGY TO GABBY’S FAMILY
Laundrie also issued a written apology to Gabby’s family in his notebook.
“I’m so very sorry to her family because I love them,” the journal said.
“I consider her younger siblings my best of friends.”
Laundrie even made a note asking for his things to be picked up because of Gabby’s dislike for litter.
“Please pick up all of my things. Gabby hated people who litter,” he wrote.
LAUNDRIE ‘SAW HIS FAMILY’
Laundrie also alluded to seeing his family after killing the young vlogger.
“I rushed home to spend any time I had with my family,” he wrote.
He also apologized to his family in the notebook.
“I am sorry to my family. This is a shock to them as well as terrible grief. They loved as much, if not more than me.
“A new daughter to my mother, an aunt to my nephews (sic).
Please do not make this harder for them. This occurred as an unexpected tragedy,” Laundrie is believed to have written.
A PLEA TO THE PUBLIC
Laundrie also issued a plea to the public in his notebook.
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“Please do not make life harder for my family, they lost a son and a daughter,” he wrote.
“The most wonderful girl in the world. Gabby I’m sorry.”
